I have often been watched with pity.. as I "wasted" weekend after weekend watching movies on my bed.. The situation was bad enough to have my room mates intervene and ask me.. if this is a sign of something more and egged me on to do more with life...
to think about it.. i always was the reclusive kind.. not like the silent person in the corner in a class room.. make no mistake about it.. I was as naughty as the next horny teen you could imagine in American Pie.. but.. strangely... weekends always made me reverse metamorphasize into my little cucoon called home... I have spent so many weekends being so sedentary that a hibernating bear would look like a kid high on excess sugar!
I really wish I knew what the reason for this is.. but until then.. i might as well enjoy it...
the one bright side of this "lifestyle".. is the movies.. I have seen so many movies now (thanks to piracy.. whooot!) that it takes me a good deal of an hour trying to sort from the list the ones I have not yet watched! What eventually happens is I end up watching some of the 'lesser' known movies.. the movies that were forgotten to be hyped... the movies that.. in essence.. could be the work on a desperate movie maker trying to use a tried and tested formula for a movie and end up looking ridiculous or.. sometimea.. it could be the work on a creative genius..
Even though I could probably give a very detailed description of Megan Fox's.. er... "things".. I have a terrible memory remembering the movies that actually moved me!
One, I remember was about death.. a grim topic.. but.. a truth all of us want to run away from.... If a person dies.. we console the relatives.. act shocked and surprised... or give a consoling look if the person had lived a full good life.. fact is.. we are so unnerved by it.. we just dont know how to react to it.. The near and dear ones.. understandably are in too much pain to be able to react.. its the people who were not really close to the person who passed away that end up being all awkward..
I guess its the whole knowing someone enough to have the respect to go and attend his funeral but.. not knowing him enough to be able to share the pain is what makes it unbearable..
Its a situation I have been in a lot of times..
Sometimes.. the person was a close friend/relative of your parents... Being in a situation where your parents are inconsolable.. and you look at the person.. fondly remembering a few hazy memories when he/she visited your home and gave you a little chocolate.. or.. maybe took you to the church or a walk..
Simple events.. that.. did not really mean much to a kid who's prime concern was seeing superman on tv.. But, it surely was the beginnings of becoming fond of a person... and now.. suddenly.. 10 years later.. he/she is no more.. You look at your parents.. and want to share the pain.. but.. you can only feel sorry for them.. you look at the relatives of that "uncle" or "aunty" who passed away.. unable to recognise anybody.. you just stay silent.. sorry all around.. a few distant memories for company... and a feeling of helplessness to console..
If a body had a spirit.. would it also feel this way?.......
Coming out of this probably controversial topic (hoping not to get flamed if I came out as too harsh about death).. its the unknown movies that seem to have made more of an impact on me than perhaps the rest..
a few I can remember is probably..
1) the movie abt death (the title I dont seem to remember).. the movie was about death.. all characters were.. cartoony.. Cartoony in the sense that some sorta effect was added to the regualr movie that made everything look.. cartoony... perhaps to give a comic effect to a movie dealing with death..
2) The man from earth: probably one movie where the story is was a conceptualised by a genuis, and acted by some of the finest... a concept that was so crazy.. but.. so.. simple.. It was categorised as a Sci-Fi movie.. Probably the one with the smallest budget and perhaps one with the most intense story line..
3) Strictly about sex: Well.. I have to admit.. the reason I had a second glance at this movie while going through the list is the 'sex' in the title.. but.. what got me more hooked was the plot.. perhaps watching movies with raunchy titles are now a must thing for me.. The movie young people fucking was also another refreshingly nice movie.. strangely appealing to my reptilian and higher brain at the same time!
This blog is just like trainwraek.. I am sorry.. I did start off thinking that this blog will be about the positive effect of movies.. but.. I just kinda got lost typing away..
Long blog short.. the movie strictly about sex.. taught me one thing... open your mind.. relax.. and do things because you like to..
that was the mantra I lived by a few years back.. now.. not really...
it felt like kiss and a slap on my cheek.. a slap reminding me of the fact that I have so truly lost myself in this world.. wandering about.. becoming a different person.. a person that has lost all sense of direction and is running a rat race just because he is in the middle of one...
and a kiss.. because.. even though my lazy lifestyle has resulted in a gain of a couple of kilo's around my waist and a host of other problems.. it did bring me to realise something that was way more important.. that is... the way of life i can live with... a way of life that I believe in... and.. a way of life that I belong to...
Bloging off for now.. will make a rough run through to correct spelling mistakes and such.. excuse me if I fail miserably.. ;)
