hoping against hope

I got a call today... From this girl I love with all my heart.. The chances of us being together just took a nosedive..
Life sure is a bitch...

The shitty thing is.. It was pretty obvious that us being together will take nothing less than the hand of God working at such a breakneck speed, that it would make the creation of the universe seem like mere child's play..
Yet I went about everyday.. Loving this girl.. cuz... I cant help but love her.. I've heard people tell me, why do things which has no future? or it is a bad thing to love a girl you cant be with..
Well.. I just have one fuckin thing to say out.. I don't give a shit about what you say.. When the girl you care for more than yourself, needs someone.. will I move back and say like one of them 'now jobless' investment bankers, 'ah.. sorry.. ur not a worthy long time investment'? Fuck no!
I'd give my life for her.. Just to see her smile another day..

I guess at the end of it all.. life really isn't about all the money, sex, fun and games... its about the experience you've had.. I've experienced euphoria being with her.. Now.. I experience an intense heart break... and it pains like fuck..
and all I can think about is.. I would live in this pain forever.. if only.. it would bring her a life of joy beyond anything she has ever had so far..

Well.. call me a girl.. call me a homo.. but yeah.. I (the souless, heartless male species).. suffer heart breaks also.. and.. yeah... we do love..
Let me tell you the truth.. us being 'macho' and complete arseholes is just our way of trying to make girls never truly reach ur heart.. cuz.. once a girl really touches our heart.. she will always be a part of u.. forever...

I have one girl in my heart.. forever..

I may not have her in my arms during those cold winter nights keeping her warm.. but my wasted heart will beat hopelessly till the end of days... longing for the times when it skipped a beat, whenever I saw her..